©January 2011 by Fabienne Lopez
Now, let’s turn our attention to Envy. Wikipedia describes Envy (Latin, invidia) as a desire to possess something that someone else has. Generally a skill, talent or ability.
We become envious when we resent that another person has something we perceive lacking in ourselves.
As creative people, there will always be artists whose work we envy. Painters, sculptors, writers whose ideas we wish we had, whom we think are better than us.
Envy strikes when we look at a particular work that we wish we had come up with the idea for.
Envy may start with a sort of self-love, because I want something to supposedly better myself. But when I am envious, I am not loving my creativity. I am not grateful for, or happy in, what I am expressing.
The sin is deadly, because it will not let me reveal my creative self.
Astrologically, envy is associated with the planet Mercury. Mercury symbolizes the power of communication, one’s own mental competence. Envy is rooted in the belief that we are not creative, that we are not capable of coming up with unique ideas, desires and goals as creative people do. It’s the conviction that “I will never be that good!”. A difficult Mercury in our chart, either by sign or aspect, could lend itself to bursts of envy if we doubted we could adequately express our creative potential.
Underlying the envy, there is an admiration displayed for the other person’s talent and capabilities, a wanting to emulate and develop those same qualities.
I believe that what are asking for when “envying” another person’s work is help in the form of a sounding board, a supporting structure, an intellectual match that would foster our own development as creative beings.
At least that’s my own reaction when I found myself envious of someone’s creative production. For those who know me, they are aware that I am a big fan of paranormal romance novels. I am always wishing that I could come up with an idea for a series of books and also get past the idea that “I never, ever can write a romance novel”.
How about you? Is there admiration in your envy? Whose work have you been envious lately?